Sunday, January 6, 2008

It is two days before i move. And i have considered much during this time of reflection and contemplation. Moments ago a very clear and concise thought came to mind, as i was trying to find the words to most describe this recent time period. What i  have learned: Most of the population does not deserve to receive surrender, as it will abuse the privilege. 

i am rather caught of guard by such, as i have lived my life openly and givingly  all of my life. However, through doing so the consequences have been great in  that most people do not understand the value of a person willing to give all, and in consequence create a negative impact on such a person by taking too much of their energy and life force in order to fill their insatiable desire of want. People are greedy. And it is rather highly unbecoming of a people that state they want peace and balance.



It isn't a far stretch of wonder to understand why women are seeking men whom are capable of respecting and treating well the trust that is placed  within them. Are you worthy? And if you are, then you would accept the  process of testing in understanding that abiding by things which are good, you are rewarded. Rewarded with the one of the best of wives that could be found. But, you must earn that trust. 



It isn't any wonder why after finding such a man, women are choosing to live in such sanctity within the boundaries of their own home. Venturing out when it is pleasing to do so for the families sake. And most often than not, carrying that sanctity into the world in vibrance with such a man  beside her, as with him she is safe to do so, and none can harm her. Otherwise alone, she must stand on guard for the sake of respect in her own value.



Men seem to find it acceptable that their natural urges, while unbelievably beautiful, are solely the source of obligation to be attended to, in which is error in thought! If you are unwilling to live up to the obligations of love, you do not deserve to have sex! 

Seeking worthy men of good action is a worthy pursuit. And gladly opening in trust once he is recognized is the sweetest thing in all of life. However, i do believe it is ok to be cautious of others until their true character is found to be worthy of the surrender and the gift that resides within... In this current world, i believe it is a prerequisite. 

As i write this i consider thoughts of the past in that i believed while growing older, i would never surrender to such a cynical view point of life. i did not subscribe to caution, and believed doing so would be an error and sign in lack of trust in the perfection of life. i still believe in life's perfection, however value my place within it more so... Like a permeable skin, our choices are responsible for the things which we receive and give. If it be of good or bad nature, it is because we chose it.